A year ago today

On April 12, 2009 we got home from our trip to Europe. The next morning I had to wake up super early to go to the fertility doctor. We had been trying for months and my hormones started getting the best of me so I figured it was time to talk to him. I was exhausted and very apprehensive about the visit. I had been to this doctor when I was younger so he could help me with hormone issues so I was familiar with the office and the doctor as well. But I had never asked him how my hormone issues would effect being able to get pregnant. I knew I could get any answer from...you will have no problem, to...you may not be able to get pregnant. I walked into the office, signed in, looked around and after trying to find a seat in such a crowded waiting room, I sat down expecting a good long wait. I immediately pulled out my Bible and just opened it not knowing what to do other than turn to God. It opened to a random page and I read..."He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the Lord." Psalm 113:9 As I read the word "Lord" they called my name. I had waited no longer than a minute.

I didn't even have time for everything to sink in. I just felt the Lord's presence with me in a powerful way. I was shocked. I guess I shouldn't be shocked by the work the Lord does in our lives but I just couldn't get over what I'd just read. How had I turned to that page, that verse and had just enough time to read it before they called my name? God. He is good and He was with me. During a time of uncertainty and questions He was speaking to me and giving me hope.

The doctor told me that day that I would have problems getting pregnant. I will spare you the boring details but basically from what I understand (which isn't much with medical stuff) the part of my brain that should tell my hormones how to work...didn't work. So they would have to start me on fertility treatments and just see if my body responded to them without my brains help. I started treatment the very next day.

Now exactly one year to the date later...Mckinley turned four months old and I can say that on my own accord I was a barren woman but I am in my home and a very happy mother of one amazing child. Praise the Lord!